Easter isn’t the
family celebration it was when I was a kid. But, Christmas Day at my
sister’s home is a big family celebration, one that normally isn’t
complete until, after having partaken of the "cornucopia of
unbridled avarice" and stuffing ourselves to the gills with an
equally over-stuffed turkey and all of the trimmings, everyone gathers
in the family room to watch The Christmas Story.
Prior to viewing the movie,
however, my sister hosts an afternoon slide show depicting scenes from
when we were growing up. I know that one of her goals is to prove to
year-in and year-out that I am "Ralphie Parker," the
nine-year-old whose dream is for Santa Claus to come bearing a Red Ryder
200-shot, range model, air rifle. Ralphie pins all of his hopes and
dreams for Christmas on getting that air rifle, despite the
protestations of his mother, fourth grade teacher, and even the Santa
Claus at Huckabee’s Department Store, each of whom said "you’ll
shoot your eye out, Ralphie."
If you’ve seen The Christmas
Story, you may recall that, on the way home from school with his
pals one early December afternoon, Ralphie gets into a fight with the
neighborhood bully, Scott Farcus. And, in the ensuing mêlée, Ralphie’s
glasses get broken. After his mother puts an end to the fight, takes
Ralphie home, and treats his wounds, Ralphie then proceeds to his
bedroom, awaiting his father’s return from work. Confused and fearful,
Ralphie contemplates the inevitable encounter with his father when
Ralphie will have to explain why he got into a fight with Scott Farcus.
Like Ralphie Parker in his
bedroom, the disciples in today’s gospel have gathered in an upper
room and have barred the door for fear of the encounter that’s
inevitable. If the disciples barred the door solely because they feared
the Jewish authorities, the disciples know that they will have to answer
"yes," they were Jesus’ followers and, perhaps, to suffer
the consequences as Jesus had only eight days earlier. Or, they will
lie, saying "no, we weren’t Jesus’ followers," only to
deny him yet another time.
But, the disciples had already
been told that Jesus has risen from the dead. So, perhaps they are
behind that barred door because they fear the inevitable encounter they
will have with Jesus. And, in that encounter, similar to the encounter
Ralphie Parker knows he is going to have with his father, the disciples
are going to have to explain themselves to Jesus.
Take St. Peter. Because he feared
more what others said about him than he loved Jesus, Peter denied Jesus
not one but three times. How is Peter going to explain that?
Or, how about St. Thomas? He wasn’t
even present in the upper room when Jesus first appeared. Instead,
Thomas was out and about someplace, perhaps trying to get his life back
on track, hoping to put behind himself all of the now-painful memories
of his time with Jesus and the other disciples. Thomas had pinned all of
his hopes on Jesus---believing that he was the promised Messiah---and,
now, with Jesus dead, Thomas has become cynical. He even disbelieves
that Jesus had risen and appeared to the disciples, perhaps thinking
their story is a sick joke.
How many of us are like Peter,
protecting ourselves from those whom we’ve betrayed by our denials, by
our false accusations, or by our malicious gossip? Rather than facing
those whom we’ve wronged, admitting our evil, and begging forgiveness,
isn’t it easier to bar the door and to shut those people out of our
lives, even though we know that we can’t do that forever?
How many of us are like Thomas,
having been stung by the pain of dreams that have become nightmares? How
many of us have resigned ourselves to a bleak and hopeless future where
we talk about what "might only have been" but always prefacing
it with "if only that hadn’t happened"? And, rather than
confront our unhappiness and despair, isn’t it easier to turn our
backs on the past and to pretend that we can just walk away from it all?
We may not use a metal bar to keep a physical door shut. But, how about
the bar of cynicism, like the one Thomas was using to keep the tears of
grief that had been welling up in his heart from gushing forth?
And yet, Jesus breaks through the
bars of the physical doors to forgive Peter and the door of cynicism
that Thomas has allowed to turn his heart into stone. To Peter, Thomas,
and the other disciples, Jesus simply says, "Peace be with
you. Whose sins you forgive they are forgiven; whose sins you retain,
they are retained." No explanations, only Divine Mercy and the
command to forgive others.
Isn’t this true is in all of
our relationships, whether any particular relationship involves one’s
spouse, one’s parents, brothers and sisters, one’s in-laws, or even
neighbors, co-workers, and, for that matter, all of God’s people. But,
good people do bad things. And, because good people sin, they allow
fear, guilt, and shame to justify locking themselves behind barred
doors.
Today’s gospel challenges us
with a series of questions:
- Do you try to break through
the barred doors? Or, do you stubbornly refuse to break through
them, allowing their fear, guilt, and shame to justify your
estrangement?
- Are you willing to forgive
others like Jesus forgave Peter, Thomas, and all of the disciples?
Or, would you rather retain their sins, forcing others to remain
behind their freely chosen barred doors?
Jesus
could have chosen to allow his friends spend the rest of their lives
barred behind closed doors full of fear, guilt, and shame for what they
did. But, don't overlook the fact that Jesus didn’t choose to leave
his friends in their self-imposed prison.
Also, don't overlook the contrast
to Peter, Thomas, and the other disciples to be found in the disciple
who was absent from that upper room---Judas the Betrayer---the one who
sold Jesus for thirty silver pieces.
Why wasn’t Judas there in the
upper room?
Could it have been that, when the
moment came for Judas to confront the truth of his terrible misdeed,
Judas allowed his fear, guilt, and shame to convince him that the only
escape from the living hell he had created for himself and others was to
take his own life?
Imagine if Judas had only allowed
himself to believe that Jesus---God’s only begotten son, the one who
Thomas had himself witnessed forgiving sinners---could also forgive
Judas the Betrayer. Judas then would have been present in that upper
room. He would have experienced Jesus the Risen Lord and---just like
Peter, Thomas, and the other disciples---offering forgiveness. Through
divine mercy, the peace of Christ would have flooded Judas' heart
washing away all of the fear, the guilt, and the shame resulting from
Judas' evil choice. Think of the ministry Judas could have exercised, if
only Judas had recognized that Jesus could forgive even Judas’ sin!
Good people do bad things. They
run for cover behind barred doors. And, they live in fear, guilt, and
shame rather than to live in the peace of Christ that comes through the
forgiveness afforded by divine mercy. Yet, as today’s gospel teaches,
the peace of Christ will be theirs, when we---as Jesus disciples---break
through the doors that others have barred and forgive them just as Jesus
forgave Peter, Thomas, and the other disciples.
I’ve frequently noted that the
miracle of forgiveness is the only miracle we know with absolute
certainty that we can perform. And, that miracle---the gift of
forgiveness---presents the paradox of discipleship. When we choose not
to forgive others:
- we live like Peter,
fearing our betrayals;
- we live like Thomas,
despairing about the past and feeling hopeless about the future;
- or, we choose death
to escape the hell we’ve made of our own as well as others’
lives, as Judas did.
Jesus broke through the door of
fear, guilt, and shame, forgiving Peter, Thomas, and all of the
disciples of their sins.
But, Jesus couldn’t forgive
Judas---not because Jesus didn’t want to forgive Judas---but because
Judas had chosen to close his heart to divine mercy. And so, we're left
marveling at what Judas could have accomplished, had he opened himself
to the possibility of divine mercy, to be present to accept Jesus’
forgiveness, to allow Jesus to breathe the Holy Spirit into his soul
and, then, to send Judas out into the world to forgive others as Jesus
forgave him.
Two years ago, on May 23, 2000,
Pope John Paul decreed "throughout the world, the Second Sunday of
Easter will receive the name Divine Mercy Sunday." The Pope intends
this Sunday to be an annual invitation to face with confidence in God’s
goodness all of the difficulties and trials that we will experience in
the years to come. In light of today’s gospel, we are reminded that
most difficulties and trials are a consequence of the unwillingness to
forgive others. "Divine Mercy Sunday" is an invitation to
break through the barred doors and to transform all of difficulties and
trials into new life by forgiving one another, as Jesus did, and
offering them the peace of Christ which St. Paul says "is beyond
all understanding." |